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octopus-4 wrote: I know how it feels: having something in mind and not being able to make it sound as you wish. I'm totally incapable of playing drums, neither keeping a 4/4 on a snare.

Hi,

One of the hardest things to learn in acting, and then in meditation is one thinking that they have to be like, or sound like or create like.

YOU DON'T have to feel that ... and within a mediation, improvisational stand point, it only suggests that you don't think yo can do something good enough compared to the idea that you have in mind ... and as you meditate and learn more about the inner ... anything ... you will find that the confusion and inability to create it has more to do with your own desire to do one thing, but is being interfered with something else. The crossing of internal and external ideas, has a tendency to prevent us from even trying something ... different.

And I'm not sure that this can improve if you don't learn to ride the bike like a child did ... and learning to interpret your OWN SIGNALS, rather than associate them with know this on that in music and other examples out there. You have to compare it to yourself only, not the idea! And that is not easy! The idea is a near impossibility because it is an idea, not a reality that you can try and reach. The other side is learning to identify and "play" your own signals, and that gets easier as time goes by and you do more!

I think, don't quote me on this (!!!), that you kinda have to go back to being a child and have fun just hitting things, or find out ... wow ... that sound is neat ... and then you next start following that feeling ... not what it would sound like if Edgar Froese, or Klaus Schulze, or Vangelis played them.

Myself, have always had a thing for keyboards and I want so badly to goof around with sounds that ae similar to those three ... but all it tells me, is that their "sounds" have created an image within me, that I can not copy, and I have to create my own image ... that's not a problem ... the only issue I have is getting by and learning a DAW well enough to be able to do something, but to this day I have not had a good time with any DAW, and can't find anyone to help me with it. And sadly, the musical design and ideas are not quite compatible with computers yet, and it will be a few years still until they do better so that instruments and computers are not a problem that takes some high tech person to work on ... and sound cards on computers have never taken to "mixing" at all ... though the M-Audio LT10 was really good at it, but then M-Audio probably got a lot of flak and they never learned how to do drivers for W10 and beyond ... a great sound card ... totally wasted, and it was simple and I could mix things directly with it.



Edited by moshkito - 8 hours 10 minutes ago at 11:50